overtaken

i laugh a bit when i see the title of my last post. and forgive me for not writing sooner, you see, a few days after i posted about being overtaken by blessings, i found out that i am pregnant....with twins.

i just can't stop laughing.

i am totally overwhelmed, overtaken, over my head, over the top. just over all over.

if you read my blog, or know me at all, you must know that there were many days that i didn't think that we would ever know what it was to have one child. and now! we are going to have FOUR!

i was praying one day and asking for new strength in our waiting season - and the Lord told me "i don't waste money". that may sound a little too earthly for the Lord of the universe to say - but listen. we didn't pay ONE DIME for our in vitro process. we were given every cent - and let me tell you it is expensive. so when He said that he doesn't waste money, i think what He meant was - "lots of people trusted me, and believed that I would do this for you, so i am not going to let that investment go to waste"

so if you gave us any money, or prayed for us even once - you can just join in the laugh and the blessing - we have all of you to thank.

our brains are exploding with logistics and planning. but our dreams are coming true - and we have a new mini-van to prove it.

i will resume more blogging when i am not so blooming tired. all this blooming is exhausting.

goodnight.

come upon and overtake you

i used to claim this promise...in deuteronomy 28:1-2 

¹ “Now it shall be, if you diligently obey the LORD your God, being careful to do all His commandments which I command you today, the LORD your God will set you high above all the nations of the earth. ² All these blessings will come upon you and overtake you if you obey the LORD your God"


and now...my goodness, it has happened. 


I am overtaken with toys and noise and a bustling house. and there is not a day that goes by that i don't remember the emptiness, the hollow sound of loneliness. The crying, the hoping, wishing and dreaming.

it is the simple things: I used to have cold feet in my little single bed, all night long. and now, i have a warm husband to tuck my cold feet under - and he is even a willing victim!

and my kiddo's...they want me, they need me, they delight in me. and they are the delight of my heart. we were so grateful to be married, but we missed little footsteps in fuzzy jammies running all over our house.

and now, every morning, i hear the "da, da, da, whooooo" from alina, and the "mommy, come and get-choo" from emma. (this is what we taught her to do as an alternative to crying until we came for her in the morning. we actually told her to say "mommy, daddy, come and get me" but she came up with her own version)

it is so hard to wait, so, so hard to wait. but what happened? He made it all beautiful in His time.

nothing is the same.

car rides are not the same. alina has "joy spasms" which means that out of no where she just yells until she  gags herself. she is not mad, or crying, she is just "singing". emma doesn't appreciate it, so she joins in with her own blood curdling scream - and we drive, somewhat helpless because alina doesn't understand Shhhh. and Emma doesn't really understand that alina does things that she is not allowed to do.

so we just have to laugh. it is our blessing, coming upon us and overtaking us. and making us deaf.

and i might as well tell you that we have another one coming.

yes, that means three under three by next summer.

My God, help me. running after these promises is a lot of work!

and now i am running with morning sickness and a crazy kind of tiredness.

but i wouldn't trade it for the world, no i wouldn't.

my tsunami of promises, that is how i see it. it is abundant and beautiful. and again, i am so grateful.

(if you are waiting for your promises - hang in there - and in the meantime...sleep. because when they come you may never sleep again!)