accentuate the positive

eliminate the negative...thats how the rest of the song goes. you should look it up on you tube, it is a cute song.

what i am setting out to do in this blog is to do just that - accentuate the positive.

what is true is that i feel like i am being sawn in half right under my rib cage. it is actually a combination of that and taking a hammer to an already very sore organ. i am not sure anymore what organ it is that is sitting directly under the right side of my rib cage, but it does feel swollen and i am pretty sure that the baby on that side of my tummy is rubbing their darling head aggressively against said swollen organ.

so, i am not traditionally a sit down and read books for hours on end while i lay on my side kind of a gal, but this is exactly what is happening. and i have another 6 weeks to go.

in the grand scheme of things, 6 weeks is nothing, really it is nothing. but as i sit at this end of 6 weeks, i have to admit it feels like a long time.

so to stay true to the title of this blog, i am going to review the good things that have happened in the past couple of weeks:

1) Emma (2 and a half) has found her sense of humour - and she is totally cracking me up! last night she grabs a chair, pulls Alina (1 and a half) over to it, sits her down and then stands behind her with the announcement "Hold still Alina, this is going to hurt". then she grabs her hair and begins to pull it back like she is going to karate chop it all off. Of course Alina can sense danger, being the second born, that instinct comes naturally. so she grabs the little chair, holds it behind her bum and proceeds to run out of the room as fast as her little legs can carry her. i was still laughing an hour later. to top it off, emma made up her own words to "if you're happy and you know it" from "clap your hands" to "shake your bum". and then she would wiggle so hard she would fall down. All around, she was a super hyper - super funny toddler last night that brought on a much needed laugh for her dad and i.

2) speaking of bums - the other night, the girls were in the tub, shawn was monitoring - but he went to get their pyjamas ready - and then this glass shattering scream came from Alina. the obvious question "Emma, what happened?". her answer "i bit her bum". and indeed she had. poor kid, right on the fat of her cute little bottom  - a perfect bite mark. life with toddlers is always a funny ride because you end up saying funny things like "Emma, we don't bite other people's bum's". Add that to the list of things you never thought you would say in your lifetime.

3) Shawn has been a gold medal dad - because i can't be a very hands on mom right now. he is in charge of every diaper for alina and every potty time with emma, most bedtimes, all wrestling and then special dates out with the girls so i can have naps. most household chores and the job of nurse to me have fallen on his capable shoulders, and i am so proud of him.  i have loved marriage, but i have never loved it as much as i do now. there is something so amazing about watching a man become a husband, take up the responsibility of a household and a wife. but nothing, i mean nothing compares to watching a man become "daddy".

4) our community has rallied and loved us. we are getting meals and calls with concern, and paper plates so we don't have to do dishes (isn't that a creative idea?). we are so grateful and humbled by the people around us. i have to admit, it is hard to be the needy one for this extended amount of time, but i plan to repay all of this kindness when i get off my couch - so all of you better watch out!

I sure don't mean to sound fake, over-positive, or saccharine. i could write a whole complaining blog, but i simply don't find that interesting. if you ask shawn, he can tell you that i am not always in the best head space, but you and my computer have found me in a good headspace, so why not talk about the good stuff?

stay tuned, we are on the home stretch for bringing two new bouncing baby boys into this world. I cannot wait to meet them!